Sunday, August 30, 2009
i've counted my costs.
weighed my options.
and i know it's worth it.
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i juz came across this 8secs ago!! and counting! x)
Some times its not easy... but its worth it in the end =)would i consider last week a roller coaster week? maybe.
shifted into the new place. it's colder and i'm catching a cold soon i tink.
havent been having good sleep for the past week. waking up in wee hours of the night for no particular reason, and waking up earlier in the morning. broken sleep iz still not as good as a whole night straight through sleep til the morning. my health behaviour change iz being compromised!! haha x) oh well. but i guess it's worth it. better than staying under totally unliveable conditions.
went jogging finally on thursday morning after a longlonglong while. and age iz catching up on me i tink. i tink my right leg's muscle iz imbalancely toned. so it's straining at my knee and it doesnt really feel all that good. i'll need to change sport soon. like seriously soon.
andandand,
i'm whaling :D
GEEX.
[sorry i couldnt resist it. haha whaleeeeeeee!!!]i came across smth else too!! no link but oh well. worth quoting x)
Leadership is not a game. Leadership is not about fame. Leadership is a Name --- Jesus Christ.no other name but the name of Jesusssss (:
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
day of matters of all sorts getting resolved (:
a dramatic week stands behind of me.
an adventure filled future stands ahead of me (:
major update for the week: i've moved out! AGAIN! :D
do i honestly look like some ahlian or does keith look like some mafia that we have some sorta gang outside?! it's amazingly ridiculous what people would do and say in the name of money. God isnt against you having money, but God iz against money having you. and i tink God will be really angry at that money-minded bloodsucker of a landlord. that's if he knows God that iz. so what if the china boy has lots of contacts and having the assurance of a fully rented house. it's still not right to unfairly treat current(now ex) tenants.
i guess now that the event iz over, so will the accusations and backstabbings. come to tink about it, i tink i wasted my energy and time to even bother to stoop low to fight against them. simply because the landlord doesnt even seem to bother. so long the house brings money to him, he's contented. 17 Sunhill Av: BE GONE!
unhappy things are officially over finally.
but! happy things are still coming my way that's for sure! (:
the past week has been a really precious and treasured week. a week that was cherish for fear of things going awry. but knowing that things wont, i'm absolutely positively sure that an interesting future awaits (: i shall eat back my words from a previous post: everything will never be the same again (:
i've got lots to learn (:
teach me. to love.
guide me. through life's challenges.
lead me. deeper in Christ.
[Romans 8:28]
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called accordingly to His purpose.
we can be victorious with Christ! <3
we are going to be victorious in Christ (:
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
interesting article (from naddie as usual!! :D)
http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1914321,00.html
There are two key predictors of a resilient relationship, experts say: mutual support and a willingness to sacrifice.
Gottman says he could predict which couples would blossom under stress: those in whom, years before, he had observed better communication and more mutual support. "Even at the time of the wedding, the men were more respectful of their wives, prouder of them," he says.will i become someone my husband can be proud of? i tink i need to work on that (: i shall start now cuz i tink i've got a longlonglong way to go! x)
Beyond respect and pride — and even love — it may be the willingness to sacrifice that leads to a lasting marriage, according to researchers.proves the first point! apparently researches have been done and scientific studies are usually erm most reliable? iz it? x) i tink so!
Studies at the University of Denver, and colleagues found that the willingness to forgo personal interests and put a partner's needs ahead of one's own was directly linked to a long-lasting, happy marriage — provided that such sacrifices weren't damaging or one-directional.terms and conditions! (: mental note.
"You've got to know that you actually do better if you hang in there."what doesnt kill you makes you stronger (: roughing it together i tink iz the fun part of a marriage, knowing that you're going through storms not on your own because you have your spouse with you. and solely because you know that with him/her, it's better than doing it yourself (: and because you know that going through it together breeds itself a stronger bond on its own (:
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Monday, August 17, 2009
woots! (:
melbourne so rocks socks (:
saturday keith, doreen, lozie, jisun and clairer headed out for yumcha lunchhhh!! (: yumyumyumcha! :D finally had my charsiewpau x)
after yumyumyumcha, we met up with bryan, jessie, timmy and some other friend(whom we spent an afternoon together but yet we still dunno his name! HMMM). so anyways, we headed over to wineries at yarra valleyy!! (: and of cuz, keith drove all the girls in his car :p privileged person :D
so yupp (: wine tasting! x)
natalia attempted to learn a skill or two from master keith but i tink she failed :p let's juz say the wine smells like wine and tastes like wine :p blehhhh, nah x) there were a few that were really nice though! (: to be honest, i could smell and taste that it's different, juz that apparently my imagination isnt good enough to put a finger to what the difference iz :p
there's smth about seeing the colour of the winee.. x)
lozie looks like she's enjoying herself (:
but yeah, while the guys and lozie were geniunely interested in tasting wine...i realised i like sunny scenery shots :p glistening glimmering!! (:
winery A. yarra yering?
winery B. yering station?
and so yeah,while the rest of us girl kinda juz took sips or two of the nicer tasting and not so strong wine.. we spent most of the time taking pictures! x)
sorry, the sun was too bright x) and i forgot my sunnies! x) but jisun stuck out her tongue, so it doesnt look that bad :p
jisun, lozie, jessie and clairer against the pretty background structure which maybe was suppose to be a shelter without cover? HMM x)
i like the special effects the sun has on our face :pandandand, haha it was definitely a fun day out with clarier! :D the first time she's outta moses' strongholdssssss. blah! :p
lozie! (: and i have bad camera aiming skills seriously x) cannot self portrait. nvm, capturing scenery behind iz good too! :D though i could have gotten better a angle :p
the COOL korean girl JISUN! (: she looks really cool here!! :D
keith! (: this is definitely not a forced smile! :p genuinely happy (:
oh well!i had myself a really fun weekend! (:
now it's back to reality. of school work and studying :p
out of the blue, it suddenly feels like there's someone trying to monitor my every speech and action..
honestly, i tink it's freakily scary.
but i guess it's worth it (:
even if it's juz for this short while.
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009
THE COUNTDOWN TIMER IZ GONEEeEeEeEEeE.
i'm not counting down.
i'm looking forward to being back at home, to where my family and precious kiddos are, to where i grew up, to where i'm familiar with things around me. (though mum says there's big major changes in the roads outside my house which will definitely take me aback and reel in horror)
but yet, i'm not looking forward to leaving Melbourne, to where i've got myself accustomed to for the past months, to where i've decided to place a sense of belonging in.. solely because i know when i leave, nothing will ever be the same again. nothing will ever be the same again. it wont even be a hope that i can get back to where i left off.
so anyways,
as part of my school "project". i've said i'm going to post it so i better do so juz in case someone scouts and realised that i used a false strategy and faked results: i've got an announcement to make..
*ahem*
I AM TRYING TO IMPLEMENT A HEALTH BEHAVIOUR CHANGE OF TRYING TO SLEEP EARLIER. PLEASE HELP ME TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF SLEEPING AT 12MIDNIGHT OR LATEST 1AM. MUCH APPRECIATED.
there, i said it!
let's see how things go from here...
*fingers crossed!
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009
after three gigantic soft tissue two consecutive nights and one random afternoon.
i've decided i'm mel-ing no more.
away with you negativity.
come back to me positivity.
today i feel that i've gotten the essence of what "God iz only what i need" iz.
God alone and alone is enough for me. He is the only one i'll ever need. noone else can take His place in me, in my heart. noone else can fill that void inside of me but Him.
His Grace overflows.
His Joy overflows.
His Hope overflows.
His Love overflows.
His Love draws me in.
His Love embraces me.
and most of all, His Love makes me whole.
<3
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OHOH!
and did i say? x)
i baked a mountain of cookies yesterday! (:
baking does make me happy. even better if it turns out really yummy (: even better if it brings smiles to the faces of others <3Labels: pics x)
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Monday, August 10, 2009
dun wish dun start wishing indeed only wounds the heart
a song shared by someone specially to cheer me up (: thanks!
Awake
By Josh Groban and Idina Mendzel
A beautiful and blinding morning
The world outside begins to breathe
See clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me
And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other
So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same
And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other
So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here, right now, with me
All my fears just fall away, when you are all I see
We can't stay this way forever
But I can have you here today
And I will remember
Oh, I will remember
Remember all the love we share today
i'll juz treasure what i have right this moment. the deep and close friendships forged.
because i know i wont have it ever again and never again.
i dun want it. i cant want it, not anymore.
it feels as though having beared my soul out, it feels as though i've been ripped apart. even though i know i didnt and cant give it my all ever because i dun know how, it still hurts. really bad. having to let go of what seemed to be forever. having to say goodbye to those dreams and good times. being caught in the middle, or trying to start smth afresh. i dun know if i will ever meet people like you both ever in future. it hurts me to know that it's goodbye to what i used to know and juz got to know during these short few months. i wish i had more time. give us more time to be this way. so that we can stay like this forever. that nothing will change. i cant hold on to both. i dun wan to let go of any, but i have to let go of both. it honestly does feel like 2 sharp blades juz stabbing in. it really does.
i'm sorry i broke my promise. i mel-ed. big time.
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Tuesday, August 04, 2009
what do you do when the first voice you hear is the one you wished to never have to hear to start your day. what do you know when things decide to come up against you. what do you do when what you've decided to suppress all these and not let affect you begins to crumble when someone else decides to turn against you. can you juz turn and walk away and not be bothered at all? can you? what would you do?
what would Jesus do.?
when Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss..
Jesus did not flare up.
[something i would have done if i hadnt reacted the way i did]
Jesus handed Himself over without a fight.
[i dun tink i did that - but i did pick a smaller issue to retaliate.. which i still regret. because Jesus said all who take by the sword will perish by the sword ):]
Jesus healed that guy who got his ear cut off.
[can i bless those who hate me?]
Jesus even taught a lesson through that.
i need to learn to handle things more maturely.
independence comes with a price.
dun you wish you arent forced to grow up so fast at times? dun you wish that sometimes you can be yourself and not worry about anyone complaining about who you are?
it's a compromise.
one that you can only give and never take.
shared housing: God, before i moved in, i prayed that You help me to use me to impact them. i guess i didnt pray hard and fervently and consistently enough for that matter. i cant turn back time, but can i start again? divine order. i trust You are in control nonetheless.
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Monday, August 03, 2009
not sure when you'll read this but i'm sure you'll read this nonetheless.
i'm not sure what made me say what i said earlier today. extra information not needed to be known?
but anyhow i always thought and believed this hand that life has dealt me has made me mature faster than what normally would. and i still believe so. that in it all, it's a blessing in disguise. and that knowing that God iz still in control. i'm still holding on to that slim shimmer of hope, that God can turn things around the day they come to know Jesus. and that God will always and always be true to who He iz.
juz like another global harvest message said:
I trust in divine order, knowing all is coming together for greater good.and i'm starting to tink i know why God made me fat :p
A quilter cuts and sorts dozens, or even hundreds, of shapes of fabric before creating a quilt. If I were to look at all the loose pieces, they might not seem to have a pattern or purpose. But after they have been sewn together, I can see a colorful design appear as a beautiful, durable quilt.
I may not always see the coming-together of the pieces of my life at a time when much is happening. Yet I trust that divine order is always present. Spirit is at work in the details of life.
As independent as activities and surroundings may seem to be of one another, they blend together in an intricate pattern. And even when I do not see evidence of good taking shape and emerging, I trust that it is there. Divine order is present in my circumstances, and all is coming together for good.
extra padding so that i wont hurt nor feel that much pain when i fall. considering the fact that He sorta made me that teeeny weeeeny bit clumsier than others :p
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Saturday, August 01, 2009
realised i haven been posting much.
some quotes from juz one person on FB. apparently i cant really recall how i know this person. but i have half a mind to follow this person's profile. he's the creator of that global harvest group: (Pst?) Stephen E Goh
The Christian is a person who makes it easy for others to believe in God.Because it juz occured to me that our main role of repentance iz for God's kingdom. [Ps51:12-13]
Love Is a Realityjuz friday, i attended a lecture and the lecturer asked us to define what love iz to us. i said love iz God, but in fact. love iz a verb. it's an action. an action of giving, one of sacrifice, of total embrace (:
Love is not an emotion. Love is not a feeling. Love is an action. You can have all the right feelings, but without doing anything to express them, what good do they do? Love is more than sympathy. Love is doing what it takes to help people.
These things have I spoken· unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.( John 15:11)and because love iz a verb. if we love people, and help and serve them, only then will we truly experience that fullness of joy that God intended for us to experience.
Your joy is full when you are helping or serving others. Your joy is full when you are giving. But when you are all wrapped up in yourself, you lose your joy. Forget about yourself, start loving other people, and your joy will be full.
(this last one iz a little hard to grapple with)
Immature love says I love you because I need you. Mature love says I need you because I love you.and at the end of the day.
can you say you've loved maturely?
almost like a difference between physical and emotional love.
and i still wonder.
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but actually, when i come to tink about it. i guess there's always a right time and when's not. like a time to be serious and a time to be yourself. not that being serious isnt yourself. i guess it all depends on the circumstances and situation. PLUS. celebrities are not good examples to liken either. because for 1, celebrities never come across to me to know what they're honestly doing most of the time. 2, celebrities are a little pampered? and 3. paparazzis are but juz earning their living. so yupp (: i'm not afraid and there's no need to hide anything whatsoever. because i know i only need to fear Him and only Him. (: izzit really that hard to have a good friend of the opposite gender and not be misunderstood?
ISSUE RESOLVED (:
thanks BFF (:
solution: time.
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